Oh! Those Sunday Evenings!!

In many science fiction movies we come across references to portals that take us from one dimension to another. Sunday evenings are just that for me. It is a constant reminder of the two different persons inside me. I wonder if I will ever figure out which one is ME. The one who wants to spend her whole time taking care of the H's in her life - Husband & Home? Or the one who wants to make a place for herself in the big wide advertising world?

I know the easy solution is to be a bit of both. But how is that possible when they behave like two rivals trying to dominate me from within? They just don't seem to be adjusting with each other. Its been a while since I started this so called journey to find out which one is ME. But I don't think I will ever come up with an answer unless I am willing to be a bit more open to circumstances and meet obstacles with a more strong and sober attitude. I will have to redefine the word "COMFORT"in my dictionary.

Just like RJ says, you can't have everything and be all that you want in one lifetime. So I will have to simply choose the path I want to travel. For the past so many years of my life, I just let the paths choose me and now I must do the choosing instead. My mother would say I am being what she wanted me to be - if she read this. She strongly believes in a persons capability to control his or her life. I never believed it very strongly. But if I don't believe now, there is no point in believing later.

Just wish me luck.. will you?!?!

Another Start????

I don't really remember the last time I published a post. May be more than a year. In between so many things happened or rather changed in my life. Every time I type a post I promise myself to be a regular blogger, but somehow I am never able to do that. It is not that I am out of subjects or I am out of words. Its just that, I am lazy to type and click. This time I have promised to RJ that I am going to be a "Serial Blogger".

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Just as I was finishing the last part I heard my colleagues talking in raised voices outside the office building and I went outside to see what it was about. It was then I realized they were simply having a nice relaxed time. That is very rare in our office. Most of the days the conversations that we have are confined to the phone calls we receive. Most of the calls are of short duration and consists mostly of monosyllables from our side. And the rest of the 10 hours we spend staring at our computer monitors, fingers flying over the key board or clicking away on the mouse. So today's relaxed time was a good thing, even if it was for a very short time of 10 to 15 minutes. So I am back again and now I have to think of something to write about. Of course I have to make sure that my writings are not harmful to anyone or even me.

Of course, today we are a bit relaxed, so I am able to type this much from office. Next time onward I will have to do it from home. Now I need to make a few phone calls. See you guys later.. Chao...