In many science fiction movies we come across references to portals that take us from one dimension to another. Sunday evenings are just that for me. It is a constant reminder of the two different persons inside me. I wonder if I will ever figure out which one is ME. The one who wants to spend her whole time taking care of the H's in her life - Husband & Home? Or the one who wants to make a place for herself in the big wide advertising world?
I know the easy solution is to be a bit of both. But how is that possible when they behave like two rivals trying to dominate me from within? They just don't seem to be adjusting with each other. Its been a while since I started this so called journey to find out which one is ME. But I don't think I will ever come up with an answer unless I am willing to be a bit more open to circumstances and meet obstacles with a more strong and sober attitude. I will have to redefine the word "COMFORT"in my dictionary.
Just like RJ says, you can't have everything and be all that you want in one lifetime. So I will have to simply choose the path I want to travel. For the past so many years of my life, I just let the paths choose me and now I must do the choosing instead. My mother would say I am being what she wanted me to be - if she read this. She strongly believes in a persons capability to control his or her life. I never believed it very strongly. But if I don't believe now, there is no point in believing later.
Just wish me luck.. will you?!?!
