BACK TO THE FUTURE

Ok.. I am still alive. Its just that all this time I was thinking of being a great writer and never wrote more than a page. The best thing I can write about is my life and believe me, if I write the whole thing, Ekta Kapoor is going to grab the rights. But then how can I do it when my life is connected to the lives of so many others who wouldn't want to lose their privacy. May be I will write something down and keep it hidden and it can be published after my time.

Other than that I can't bring myself to write in malayalam. But I want to write in English, I am very particular about the theme and surroundings and I want them to be in harmony with my language. So I think my forte should be non-fiction. Thats what I did all this time. I came to a decision that I am going to write something that will make a difference in this world.

But all this is possible if and only if I get to think straight, without any major distractions. Now a days my major distraction is the fact that I am still not a mother. And the only person who will understand my explanation is my mother, who will never try to justify her daughter in front of others in matters that are trivial. Sometimes I am forced to believe that the main aim of any human being, both male and female is to bring children onto earth, and give everything to them.... I don't think like that. But I do want kids.. I would love to have more than one. But I am not desperate and I don't want others telling me when to have my baby. If it wasn't for my PC Ovaries I would have had kids by now.

I don't know how people fix their priorities. Because almost always it goes wrong, because one persons priorities seldom match with another's and human beings are social animals, so always there is a possibility for priorities to clash.

If I go on writing like this, it will be never ending. But I have to make kadala curry and wheat puttu. So gotta go.. See you guys some other time.

From a Hindu.

Hindutva or Hinduism is not a dogmatic or structured way of religion or culture or God worship. It is not a way of narrow-minded restricted living. Hindutva is a method to search for the ultimate truth or spirit. It is the most original and ancient way to reach God. Every other religion has something or the other that is originally not theirs, but being a Hindu means being an original.

Religion is not something that you are when you are in your mother’s womb. It is something that is given to inherit from your parents. So if you are born to parents of a particular religion, then you you belong to that religion by default. It is supposed to guide us through the blacks and whites of our life. But Hindutva is not a religion and is a way of living, so it can be a part of your life even when you are deep inside your mother.

Every religion has a God and they have to believe in that one God irrespective of their likes and dislikes. Many believe in God because they are scared of being punished. But in Hindutva you can choose your God from among the many and the fear factor is restricted to a few forms of God. In most of the religions it is believed that they will obtain salvation only if they follow their particular religion and God. But Hindutva never speaks about saving Hindus. It speaks for the whole of the mankind or rather the whole of the universe. Every living and non-living thing is the same in the eyes of God.

May be Hinduism, if it can be called a religion as so adamantly insisted by many, is one among the very rare religions in which there is no fixed evil. In Hindutva there is no name for the evil one, because, there is no devil. Good and evil are two things that co-exist in the universe. If that is so, then how can Indian culture be good and western culture be evil? When God sees Indians and Americans as the same, then why would he put forth different standards of Good and Evil?

But before that we must understand that there is no White or Black as such in Hindutva. Everything is in shades of grey. You can belong to a darker shade or a lighter shade all according to your actions. Like any other religion or practice Hindutva also urges to fight the evil. The evil that is mentioned here is not a separate entity like a different country or culture. The evil resides within all of us and we have to fight against this inward ugliness to reach a lighter shade of grey. To fight this evil we have to recognize its existence within ourselves and experience it. Without experiencing evil one cannot fight it.

Every religion or mythology or epic mentions about Holy wars. A holy war is not fought against someone else. It is not a war in which a few people fight against some others with weapons. It is a war that each and every one of us has to fight against all those factors within us, which are distancing us from reaching the ultimate truth of life. So the greatest war was not the one between the Pandavas and Kouravas, it was the war that Arjuna had within himself. To fight or not to fight. And Lord Krishna showed him the way. Mahabharata is not just a story. It is a lesson and the most important chapter is the Geethopadesham. Any Hindu who has understood the Bhagavath Geetha will ever behave like the Shiv sena or the Ram sena.

In all the epics and mythical stories that lay the foundation of Hindutva, there are only a few things to learn.

One
No man or woman is good or bad by birth, it is their Karma that makes them do what they are doing and whatever they do, it has been previously decided by God almighty. No one can do anything against the will of God.

Two
Everything that happens, happens for a reason and no one can stop it from happening and if anything is stopped at all, it is because it was meant to be stopped.

Three
Man is a simple creature in comparison to God and man can be closer to God only by fulfilling his karma and dharma.

Four
Above all, Hindutva is all about respecting, humbleness, simplicity, love, understanding and broadmindedness.

(To be continued...)

There it goes....

Sometimes I think I have matured so much. Sometimes I think I already know what all the philosophers in this world conveyed as the secret to a happy life. But then sometimes I simply lose all the control over my temper. Those are the times when I feel ignored or taken for granted. But before going into all that I would like to tell my readers that I was not blogging for the past few months because I got a part time contract based job and I was busy like hell managing the job and home. Now the contract is over and I am free. By going for the job I realized two things. One is that if I want I can start working anytime and I haven't lost touch. The second is that I hate to work. I simply hate it. I do love the fact that I get some money for the work I do. But I hate the fact that I never get to keep it. I hate the fact that I am not able to find time for myself. But then I am the only person who is bothered about me. My mother sent me a message and it said that the whole universe helps us to fulfill our dreams, no matter how stupid or silly it may seem to those around me and only we ourselves know the pain it takes to fulfill those dreams. True...... very true. I have been discouraged so much or guided so much through other channels that, now I am reluctant to share my dream with anyone else. So back to my temper. I hate lies, false accusations, buck passing and broken promises. How can people be so petty and so selfish and so carried away? It hurts when someone so close to me fails to make me feel special. Everyone knows they are not special. But the people who claim to love us are supposed to make us feel special. Buying something expensive or a candle lit dinner may not do the job. It may be something as simple as "I will make you a coffee" or "Today I am not going with my friends, I will stay with you and we will do together all those things that I do with my friends" and so on. I often see men spending money for their wives, but they forget to spend some time with their wives. How about holding an umbrella while she is doing some outdoor activity and telling her he doesn't want to ruin her complexion? Do I sound filmy? But take my word, it works. It works miracles. Oh Oh!! By the way its my time to work miracles in the kitchen and there goes my ............. Damn!! So TATA BYE BYE